27 April 2007

Make it Burn

Boog turned one year old two weeks ago. I am constantly amazed that Rob and I made such a beautiful little person - he has changed so much since he was born, to the point of practically being unrecognizable from newborn Boog. More on him and his milestone in another post, though.

He isn't the only one who has changed in a year.

I'm talking about My Body. I've decided that me and My Body are no longer buds. We need a weekend getaway to reconnect and fall in love all over again. My Body continually disappoints me these days and I. HAVE. HAD. IT.

My son's birthday brought to light in my mind of denial that I have not returned to my pre-pregnancy form yet. My Body seems to have revolted and is actually flaunting the fact that she is Large and In Charge. To add insult to injury, I received a notice that my 20-year reunion is coming up in July. And nothing highlights one's insecurities like impending reunions. Am I right, ladies? All of this transforms into emotional outbursts - usually directed towards Rob, the poor guy. Which makes me feel bad, which makes me eat, which makes me gain weight, which makes me mad, which I take out on Rob, which makes me feel bad, etc. Lather, rinse, repeat.

I spent most of Sunday in my jammies, watching TV and being depressed. Pity parties are always catalysts for change in my life, though, so there is a silver lining here. I joined a gym on Monday! And signed up for some personal trainer sessions. I went the next day, putting Boog in their little daycare room, and worked out for an hour. It felt good. And Boog didn't have a melt-down until I came to pick him up. (As soon as he saw me, he started to cry. How cute is that? Sorry, I still think that sort of thing is cute.)

Anyhoo, I think things are looking up. I'm making an effort to eat better (and less!) and the gym will be there to make me strong. I have a feeling that I'll need that strength for my little toddling, soon to be running, Boog.

1 comment:

sari said...

Good for you!! Keep at it!